I debated whether to post this or not. My preferance for privacy and my belief that mental health should be discussed openly, directly conflicting with each other.
But I woke up this morning, at 5 am, feeling completely sick of myself. Sick of letting my anxiety and my over-thinking get in the way of doing things I want to do.
If you've been following my blog this year, you'll of noticed I've not posted for a couple of months, and it's not because I didn't want to, but sometimes, my depression can put a mental block on my creativity; I lock myself away and get stuck in a cycle of work, sleep, repeat.
It usually takes something that I have to do or plan to get me out of my frozen state and back in to action. In this case, it was planning how to redecorate our living room (more on that next week). This past week, Danny and I have been on annual leave and have spent every minute sawing, sanding, priming, painting and it's safe to say that it's given my brain time to shift gears.
I am medicated for my axiety and depression, and I know that my way of coping isn't productive and can actually make me feel worse by adding guilt to my long list of worries. Guilt for not seeing my friends, for not keeping up with my Etsy shop, for not keeping the house spotless, for not working on new designs, for not updating this blog... it goes on and on... But we need to normalise coping in any way that you can. Do whatever gets you through the day/week/month/year, as long as you're not hurting yourself or others, there's no guidelines.
I think I've just about reached my limit, I don't want to feel like I'm preaching to you! Just remember to speak to a friend or family member if you're ever struggling - there's no shame.
As for me, I have lots of blog posts planned and lots of ideas for my various digital stores, watch this space
Zoe x